The organ in the classroom
Goes ding-dang, ding-dang away
Just like your voice when you confessed your love
The movement was very soft
Smiling while looking at
You turning around to leave after passing me the letter
I like the concern embedded within your delicate handwriting
That warm milk bottle
Held tightly in my palm
Your presence in any place
Would make me feel warm
Days were like merry-go-round
Going round and round in my mind non-stop
The scenes of you being nice to me kept coming up
You once said that the promise is on since we have held hands
But, dear, that's not love
Just like being too late to wish upon a shooting star
No matter how pretty it was, it's all in the past
Our pledge was beautiful because we were too young
But, dear, that's not love
Just like the elf that lived in the wrong forest
Our love was clearly a mistake



J Jenny tats for u =D
Ytd i dreamt of you so fine.. how i wish i can neva wake up from that dream. Oh so sad, im back to reality.
If only it did not happen. i wun tink im a loser lol




I'm only left with a piano to accompany me all day
Sleepin on a grand piano
Silently worning out
I think you've shown it prefectly clear
I understand and I know that you're willing to
You said that you will be sad
But I don't believe it
Accompanying me and holding my hand like before
I hope that he really love you more than I do
So I will forced myself to leave you
You want me to say it, it's hard for me
I don't even want us to separate
Why do I still replace my sadness with a smile?
I really don't have that talent
Being with you and then accept him
You don't have to worry too much
I can manage on my own
You've gone so far away
And I will slowly walk away
Why do I still hold you when I should be leaving?
I really don't have that skill
To remain silent so soon
I will learn how to give you up
It's because I still love you so much
Happy birthday JoJo! ure 2 yrs older den me wohohoho


Yeah long time no outing with ib and together is a long day out!


IB with our new joint menber..Marvin(ah nan) and goin to join Sihui(ah si) and of cos gene's love li yun


headed over to cathy for ice age 3.. and den to asthon for dinner. Food is good there.


den to tao huay wohoho and next to pooling session and arcade.


Home sweet home =D



I realise something and that it i cant live without u. 1 day not seeing u, my heart aches a million time. i need u close to me and den i will feel save. I dunno whether i made a wise decision to give u up and stop loving u that time. But now i knew my mistake and i will treasure u more, at least to the day i reach 18. but before that, ure mine and only mine. Oh my bonjour ICE COOL, i wun leave u again. =D

Say bye bye to cigarette =D

Ytd ming yao birthday went to plaza with weiliang to meet up wif ming yao jeremy cong and jt.



How to post using Iphone..i dunno!! shit jus now only manage to post up the title..sadding
You are no longer the one im so familarise with.. so different now that i tot we were like total strangers..

I noe im not the one u are always expecting now..someone had taken over the role already.. The distance between us now is lik so far that i cant see you at the other end.


No worry.. i will try and make myself disappear..but my dear, you know that it take some times too.. so in the meanwhile jus bear with me.


i know 2 yrs do make a different and ppl do change.
You're hot then you're cold

You're yes and a no

You're in and you're out

You're up and then down
Had this mix feeling of what im really looking for in life for the past few days.

Office aside but the main thing is, if its office aside, im really worth nth.

Had beeen wondering if im born in the wrong world or is it my working enviroment that make me think so differently from others. Ure 18 but u look and think like a 20+. This is what i always hear from ppl. Be it frens or relative. Its the same.


Nth really stop me from goin to work or i say even wanted to stop my buisness. Until a few days ago when 1 thought struck me and i even had a plan ready to stop my buisness for half a yr and continue it when 2010 visit me.


I had that thinking, which after a few days, sitting in front of my laptop now, i tot i was CRAZY.


Yes indeed alot ppl may noe i treat life lightly and dun really bother bout anything, afterall im still made up of flesh, blood and of cos heart. No matter what hit me, it take me the most 3 days to be back laughing and making a fool out of myself.


I wonder y, this thing that happen passed lik 1 mth and im still down and moodless when ever i tink of it. Green eyeing the other party, present in between them only make me feel so small and weak. Cigarette comes into my mind when this thing happen. But i wonder how long it can help, i cant keep turning into cigarette to stop all the pain.


I face them almost everyday. Each day pass, each day i feel weaker. Should i run away from it and go to skool as a excuse for being timid? argh shit, goin to skool isnt what i wan oso. From use case to Primary key. SDL to VB i dunno a single thing. i love IB but i hate IT seriously. Days and days im trying to balance this weight inside me. so hard i must say. Pain struck me and tears jus flow lik a running tap wif a damage top.


This quater of my life. i call it, the mask. which i have to change, the old 1 im wearing for 17 yrs. On the number 18 yrs i finally realise its too old to continue using it. Im getting a new one.
how i wish every morning when i wake up.. all this is jus another nitemare i always have when i was a child.. too bad it isnt


when u spell pain..
So stress recently and i tot of www.ivanongissocuteannysayone.blogspot.com

it do come in handy when i feel lik shouting out everything.

Tons and tons of stress on me and god damn it though i maybe big in size and always being so happy but im only 18 tis yr.. this kind of thing i cant handle.

Flow and flow and flow and flow of unwanted stuff kip happening. Haha if i still using that lj attitude towards life to handle it, thats the end of me.


How i wish i can jus throw everything aside,im tired of everything.










so long neva kpkb so much le... kinda happy it happen too..i finally noe wad im doing for the past 17 yrs.. everything is a good thing haha =D
Have not been posting much decided to come in and write something





the later thing which im writing out may sound very gay but wadever.. im still writing it out.





Ytd i spend 2hr 15mins reading something which make me very sad and emo, 1 or 2 drops of tears roll down my cheek. In the end i cannot take it got to watch some 3rd eye to recover myself.





i realise she deserve lot more den me. She is so mature den i tot and i this kind of LJ attitude towards life can never make her feel happy. maybe yes happy as a fren to tok cok and cheer her up but seriously a NO if i were to be her other half for the rest of her life.





Damn it, its has been so long since im so seriously doing somethings of cos minus away my work. I neva feel this way before maybe its a wake up call for me? treat things more seriously? lik wad ben told me as well. Is it tat i have been treating thing jokingly and god made my life a joke as well?





OH FUCK IT NO MATTER WAD IT IS..I NEVA FEEL SO BAD BEFORE..mix feeling dunno whether its sad, angry, or self pity? abit of all 3 bah. could not slp last nite, when i close my eye i see her. Im going crazy,so long since i rily sat down and tot about my feeling. i tot i lost my feeling since sec2? Its coming baq to me and I HATE IT. Exam is jus tml and here i am siiting in front of my laptop doing nth.



FUCK y must it be now?
This few days damn tired neva slp..fri nite went to plaza to dota till 5+ as we are celebrating liqiang birthday..anw HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO! though its very belated lol..after tat went home dun dare slp cos got dha grping at 11..luckily got my parent to entertain me at round 9+ kekekke den...


Ytd nite went to cine and watch movie wahahhaa and saw keng wei there lol


Actually someone wanted to watch twilight -.- but HENG ar cine dun have twilight however NB ong bak very late oso NN den in the end watch passenger..kekekek not a bad movie though miss the starting and was abit luan lol


round 3 likdat cab home with sihui str8 away.. cos going to die liao so din go anywhere else at 1st wanted to go drinking lol


anw!!! this coming tue is DHA chalet wahahah shuang i predicted there will be FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN FUNNNNNNNNN


the 1st nite will only be for manager wahahah shuang! and im goin to stay over tat mins i gonna miss skool on wed..omg as u all noe.. im very enthu bout going skool and i have neva miss skool since the day im born so wed i goin to skip lesson for the every 1st time in my life and im goin to be very sad and remorseful bout it.. i swear i will go face the wall and think back and have 1 min of silence for wed =( kekekeke



IM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT WAHAHAH TUE FASTER COME!!!!!!!






yeah tml not goin for lect so can slp later..sry gene felt very bad eveytime ask u help me tap..kekeke good nite ppl =D
Spend the last day of 2008 with BLUEVO =DD or rather DHA at cine lvl 6 preview lounge


the place was good and the food nice lol when we go lvl 6 got 1 signboard put for DHA private function count down party lol see le shuang man.


played some games and im made to dance call mi the hip hop king kekkeeke


after we count down...suddenly everyone was shouting dha cheer omg to tink of them it rily make mi tears when i tink back..


in 2008 afterall not a bad year got some result i can show to people. and a big thank you to bluevo..i realise they were the one behind me no matter wad, when im in the lowest pt of my life i looked around i saw bluevo warrior. They neva fail to back me up. Alright..to all bluevo warrior i IVAN ONG ID NUMBER 106969 WANTS TO SAY "I LOVE U ALL" and thank you sry if sometime i make u all dulan wif my not seriousness lol

and 1 more big highlight in 2008 i got into nyp and got to know another grp of fren we call ourself ikan bilis..skool will neva be fun if they wasnt there but a big sry to u all cos i lik ps u all alot of time hope u all dun mind =( no worry 2009 wun be the same.


2009 new year :
i wan to earn 80k
i wan to get my pci
i wan to let my drive lis
i wan to have a strength of 50 =D
i wan to help bluevo top team of the year
i wan to help dha top agn

2009 IS MY YEAR!
Today went to skool for Pd wahahaha teacher told me to hand everything up by Friday wad a impossible thing.


i have decided to withdraw from Pd.. tats a right chioce i tink =D


after skool waited for ben and gene and we had lunch in koufu with sihui and yun qing.
actually only sihui gene and me ate something kekekke


during meal they were ki siao bout phone so zhun,ben and yun qing changed thier phone and gene was tinking wad phone to change..so practically they were toking phone wahaha


were waiting for zj but he was like coming back from jb decided to meet him in hougang instead lol


so gene ben sihui and yun qing came over to my place..the girls come cos of my sis de barbie dolls!!(kidding though =D) wahhahaha


omg they are willing to come over to hougang..at 1st me and gene were lik..aiya they wun come de lar wahaha


reached home i play dota and let them free play lol but no worry they din play on my bed =D


they were using laptop and chatting veri happily while i focus on my dota lol


bout 6 plus zj had to leave and all left together lol


yeah tats the end of my day, after tat is do assignment till now!!! 11.30!!






tml will be able to see whole class le yeah lookinf forward to tat and 07 jio 08 dota -.- omg scared..



There is lots of things i wanna buy cos i wan to mini renovate my room!!


4 pails of white paint
2 blue star shape light(hang on the wall)
1 white table(small put beside my bed)
1 fish tank
1 guppy
1 photo cliper
1 cradle
1 blue light bulb




yeah tats all =DD
Tagged by emma to do the following =D


The rules and regulations:
1. Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back !


1.Im veri cute
2.Im very emotional at times
3.I act like i do not care all the time
4.I drool on my pillow every nite i slp
5.I spend money like theres no tml
6.I had 1 pimple jus in front of my nose
7.I think alot at time
8.I hate IT but i love 0808
9.I love to eat ikan bilis
10.I love Bluevo


kekeke tats all =D
Any coward will fight a fight they are sure of winning. Give mi the man who have the courage to fight a fight he is sure of losing.



Bluevo warrior, we will fight this fight proudly.


Neva giv up and win it.
Today go skool


help cherie squeeze her eye


omg poo-nut in the eye


kekekke


bb =D
18th oct is a terrible day celebrate Mr kevin birthday at boat quey


at 1st go flush bar support derek fren drank quite alot there


den 3.30 likdat go sheBangs support mr kevin fren


omg nearly die


mi and liqiang were drunk lik 2 idiot


finally reach home and slp man


anw neva rily update liao lar


jus come in for fun today nia


HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLUEVO 1ST PCI =D


tats all for now kekekeke
Felt damn sick tis morning..was better in the afternoon


stayed at home the whole day was studying for iweb


more difficult then i tot it will be


anw everyday is Suhao birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!!! MAY UR WISHES COME TRUE =DDD


ltr gonna meet gene awhile


and yong yi is so pretty kekeke
Today went baq to skool to find Mr Ang for some math consultation


ans a bit and went over to tamp and to meet P our teacher for the day!!


she is pro man tot us alot and hope tml can do well wee~~


went up to her house and study oso kekeke


and i cook dinner for them! =DDD


though its onli maggie mee and fried egg lol


glad tat i din burn her whole house down!


after eatin went baq down and studied till 11plus and took bus home..


tml is the day ppl!!!!! all the best keekeke
On 1st of august 2.09pm at L1 lvl 5 i had a cigarette worth $50.70 cool huh?


yeah if any1 out there wanna try out tis kind of cigarette pls visit http://www.ivanongissocuteannysayone.blogspot.com/ for more info =D


the skool send letter to my dad and my dad was veri pleased =D he said i grew up.. weird.. i dun tink he is jokin kekeke omg suddenly i felt that i did my dad proud kekeke


but im not goin to do my dad proud agn cos it cost $50.70 each time


=(( im so sry dad i let u down sobs sobs sniff sniff


w00t today whole day maths!






ure my past not my present 100% not my future..let us bu zhi bu que bid each other good bye forever..


Exam are around the corner ppl!! work hard and hug tight to ur textbook or revision note..may 0808 do well in the exam!!!


tis few days veri stress and fan walua lik tio stuck in the middle dunno wan to do wad..


i noe exam is important but i cant let the other side go..


aiya nb got to see how well i can manage my time..


its a new task for mi kekeke


anw ytd forgot something damn important nn!! im so sry!!!


nvm next time ar kekeke


and so sry to suhao i haven watch the movie wahahah u dun emo ar =D


kip goin down to tamp tis few days to study..rily hope i can do well


and ben's house is my second home!!


ANW I SO WANNA LEARN DRIVING!!


yeah ppl all the best for ur exams! =DD
Ytd went for chalet =DD wow it was fun kekeke


and at 12 midnight we had our veri own disco kekke it is damn bloody fun and fun and fun fun FUN! seriously it is fun =D


lol left wif sihui and mingyao at quite late to go home and slp kekeke


overslept for today de lesson lol and suprise =D anny came over to hougang to find mi wahaha my dear anny so good ekekkee


went to cine wif anny for kbox wif ben,gene and kexin!


meet gene and ben while walkin to cine wahaha had pasta for lunch damn bloody full wahaha and the cream of tomato omg! not the bad kekeke


kexin joined us ltr and we went to kbox


w00t when we reached..the person ask we all to take 2-7 den for adult cos student 2-5 nia wohohoh lucky we clever take 2-5 de wahahaha cos we sang till 7 wahaha no extra charge =DD


the coke is free flow and we must fully make use of it wahah i drank bloody alot of coke and was damn bloody full and nid to release alot of time -.-


was tired halfway and i slept and cover 1 side of the sofa oops sry ppl =DD


woke up when anny and kexin left lol


gene went to meet his fren after tat while i acompany ben go eat wahaha was veri full at that time


took train home and sadly no place to sit agn..tats y i rather take 2hrs of bus ride den to take train nb


wohoho home sweet home after a chat wif sam at downstair lol sometime real funny happen but lazy to rite lol


yeah got my planning ready to fight!!





y everything jus ended lik tis?
Today went skool to prepare for presentation wahah took quite awhile and i tink tml will be prepared bah =D


anw i tink tml 4 ppl present onli omg we hao ke lian =D hope the eyes ok hor?


kekeke after skool went to tamp wif ben and gene went up 72 at hougang there lol


reach tamp meet up wif gene frens hong xiong and peiwen haha they had mac and i wei da de mi ate wif them =d and i jus had tori (dhbfncsag) don in skool =D


after tat went to ben house and MAPLE! lik lan shop siol lol


today maple fun man zak ahma showa boss and the cake -.-


lol after tat 11 plus went to hans and had our dinner =D


den home sweet home kekeke


john went for the nyp soccer trainin today and we were tokin bout soccer jus now wahaha


damn feel lik playin soccer now!!! omg!!!


tml is the presentation!!!(i wrote training instead of presentation jus now izit i soccer siao already?) good luck for everybody!!!!









yeah i look open liao =D its all fated D:
today and the whole of ytd no maple!!!


roar!!!!


slacked at home ytd doin nth waiting for alson to on server but he din..


played some fm did so revision and 1 round of dota lol


at nite got initialD slept halfway through the show kekek too tired le..woke up and called ben wahahahha w00t he got car and he comin 401..went down to bus stop and had wan ton mee at 401 was damn hungry ytd lol


slacked at the void deck till 2.30 den went home and slp str8 away veri tired!!!


wahaha today goin baq office hmmm at nite i tink no activity bah...ppl jio mi out pls!!!!










ya tou i din forget u =D
Yeah glad tat everything has come baq to normal except for something which i guess its too late..


nvm shall let nature take its course and time can heal all wound?


hope so!!


before i leave tis earth end my life hope everybody can be happy!! and she will forgive mi =DD


have a veri nice day ppl =DDkekeke